By JC Lynne
We discovered we could live on The Beard’s salary. I’d have to clean the house, ugh. We’d cut our wine clubs and reduce eating out. The conversations about my employment as a full-time writer scared me. I've been working since I was fifteen. I felt being dependent on The Beard would strain our relationship. He assured me my frustration with teaching was the bigger worry. We bucked convention, and I quit my job.
I haven't found my rhythm. Teaching offered its crazy routine. I woke at 4:30 am to hit the gym and was showered by 6. I made coffee, lunch and breakfast for offspring. I’d stumble home around 4:30 or 5 if I wasn't directing a play, sponsoring student council events or dealing with parents or staff meetings. Dinner would be around 6, and I’d collapse unconscious by 8 pm. That was my routine from mid-August to May 28th. Add driving three kids to and from basketball, school plays, soccer, volleyball, choir/band concerts, never mind getting doctors and dentists scheduled. Oh, and I wrote a novel.
The Beard declared me insane. I agree. I barely get things done now. I've no idea how I managed for ten years. I don’t have to be up at 4:30, but some days I’m not at the gym until noon, if I go at all. Driving a boy to school, cleaning the kitchen and making The Beard coffee in the morning doesn't generate much of a sweat. My laundry is frequently done. I've tackled some remodeling jobs. I’m starting a 365-day cull to remove excess melange. Writing, not so much.
The full time author’s dilemma is to build scheduled time to write without distractions. I still get “Mom, will you make breakfast, lunch, dinner?” I balance my net present value against feelings I’m not contributing financially...yet. I post my daily accomplishments for validation. I’m working to lock down a weekly word count, after all that was one of the primary reasons to quit.
In the meantime, I did shower this morning.
JC Lynne's first novel, The Esau Emergence, was published July, 2013 by Ngano Press. The sequel, The Esau Convergence is coming soon. Her blog is at www.jclynne.com.