depression diagnosis. At the time I wrote the column I had just started on my regimen of prescription medicine and therapy and I wasn't too sure how things would go. In the back of my mind, the fear of falling back and having the weight of anxiety return lingered.
Eight months on, I'm happy to tell you that it's so far, so good. My moods have leveled off, my energy is restored, and my outlook on life is full of encouragement. I still have my moments of depression, especially when my plate is full of multiple tasks and not much time to recharge. In fact, after the release of Coffee Cup Tales -- had to get promotion of my book in somewhere -- I crashed for a day or so as the weight of promotion snuck up on me. The good thing is I can recover from these bouts of sadness with a good night's sleep and a few hours of 'me' time.
What I'm writing is another reason I know things are improving. Actually, let me correct myself. The volume I'm writing is another reason I know positive changes are taking place. I can't remember a time in my life where I've been so productive. I can whip up a non-fiction piece for The Coloradoan or RM Parent in 20 minutes. Characters and their stories flow freely from my fingertips without any blockage. And, as in the case with said Coffee Cup Tales, I can pull a snippet of an idea from an overheard conversation and turn it into a short story.
I don't think I could have done this during the darkest of my depression. With the continuous background panic I always felt, I would've probably been annoyed with all the conversations instead of listening for a juicy piece of material. Clearing my mind has opened me to so many new ideas and challenges that I now know I can accomplish. Back then, something negative and worrisome would have pushed against all that positive feedback.
I'm in a good place with myself, my family, and my writing. Well, I'd like some more sales on Coffee Cup Tales; however, I know it's going to take some time to build up an audience. Good thing I'm ready to take on the task with all of my strength.
How have you been feeling lately?