Saturday, April 23, 2011

Terminus: ScreenWorks Signing off

A-Z Blog Challenge:T
By Trai Cartwright

“I’m more intimidated than I thought I’d be.  I thought I was a writer, but…”  This was the quote from one of my writing students after a very intensive 3-hour class.
            
I don’t mean to intimidate writers, but I love writing so much, sometimes I get carried away in my classes, blasting them with so much information their heads explode.
            
I know we would all collectively feel better as writers if we entered, and remained, blind and oblivious to this impossible journey.  A teacher once said, pretending there is no chance of failure may be our best weapon against our insecurities and doubts, and yes, against the very impractical nature of even wanting to be a writer.
            
But not facing how challenging all this really is doesn’t help us as writers, I’m certain of that.  The more we know about our craft and our industry, the better armed we are to compete.  The more you know, the more prepared you are for when that opportunity finally arrives. If you’ve done your homework, you won’t blow it.  Why else do you think soldiers and athletes and musicians train so much?
            
Others say the opposite:  the more they know, the more intimidated they are, the more it gets in the way of their creativity.  Their muse sticks a toe in that frigid water and says, No way, not today, not ever.  They want a warm bath of good vibes, a place of self-discovery that’s got nothing to do with anything beyond that singular moment.  
           
I don’t have the answer.  Not for any of you, anyway.  You all have to go get your own answer.
           
I’m off to go work on my answer some more and won’t be writing this blog anymore.  I think, for me, my future work entails lots more reading, lots more thinking and a whole lot more writing.  In the end it’s not really about writing at all – it’s about dreaming, and how we each want to pursue our own best selves.
            
It’s the best game in town.  In fact, it’s the only game in town.  I wish you each God speed and good luck; I’m sure I’ll see you on down the line.    

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6 comments:

Jenny said...

Trai, thanks for all your great posts! I'll miss reading them.

John Paul McKinney said...

Yes, thanks. Is there another spot where we might find your writing and advice?

Kay Theodoratus said...

I'll miss your blogs too ... but there are only so many hours in the day and you have to make the best use of them for you.

Rinib said...

Thanks for all you've done! You've helped me a lot and I'll totally miss reading your blogs, but you gotta do what you gotta do. I hope to catch more of your classes in the future.

Patricia Stoltey said...

You're making a very wise decision, though. We tend to get bogged down in the blogging/tweeting/teaching activities and forget what passion got us here in the first place. When there's no longer time to follow the dream, it's time for a change.

Cookin'Cathy said...

Trai,
You articulated the concerns that I've had as a beginning writer. One part of me says I only want to write; I don't want to trouble with the marketing end. The other part understands that all artists must embrace the whole craft, not just one component.

Best wishes on the next part of your writing journey.

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